To live deliberately

At the beginning of this year of 2014, there was a church service back home in Houston that I attended to. At that service we declared what this year was going to be for each of us. I declared it was going to be the year of travel for me. I didn’t think much of it the rest of the year, but just yesterday while me and Hayden were in the car on the way to Vermont it hit me. I have been traveling so much this year. My declaration had come true without me even really planning or realizing it. I have gone to LA, Houston, NYC, Cape Cod, Rhode Island, Connecticut, Vermont, and New Hampshire… and the year is not even over yet! I was blown away realizing how God works. Often times God is loud, and disturbing, “…a challenging presence, warning against false trails and grieving when [you] go that way anyway. But sometimes God is also silent, “…a sigh-of-relief healing presence” , knowing what its like to see burdens roll away, presenting certain things to you that are camouflaged in a way that makes you think it is less of a miracle. But it is a miracle and it is Gods work. I am blessed and fortunate enough to be in a position where I can travel as much as I did this year, and enjoy all of His beautiful work across the country. And now that I think of it, every place I went to this year I spoke about God. Whether it was reflecting with myself, or with old friends and new friends, or Hayden, I have spoken about how amazing He is.

As I was sitting in the woods of New Hampshire today I felt an overwhelming sense of calm and relief come over me. I was silent and I let the natural sounds of the earth clear my mind.. the leaves rustling in the wind, the birds chirping, and somehow the sun beaming down on me also played a part in the song. And as I was there breathing in the fall crisp air I thought of one of my favorite quotes by Henry David Thoreau (and I’ve probably posted this quote before), “I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practice resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms”  

Being in the woods of New Hampshire and being in the depths of Vermont, I had no cell service. And I know that sounds so small and insignificant on paper (or screen rather) but it is my entertainment, my means of staying connected with all of my fellow peers, it plays (sadly) a huge role in my life. When I was unable to use it, it made me reflect on my life, life itself, and God. It made me live on purpose. You know what I mean? Not just exist, but really live deliberately.  Which turns out is exactly what I needed to get a peace of mind. I have been frustrated lately with my lack of post for lack of true revelations or reflections of God. I have been so focused on work and other mild things in life that I was itching to get away and marvel at God. I have also been needing a good devotional book about Jesus (it is one of my personal favorite ways to worship Him) and while in New Hampshire we stumbled upon an old used bookshop next to a shell gas station with books all under $5 pretty much. I found one called, “Simply Jesus” which I am reading now and have quoted some, and a memoir called “everything will be all right”. But finding those books in under 10 minutes for under 10 dollars was pretty cool. And the way I see it, that is God. God is in a bookshop waiting to be picked up, God is in the sweet fall air, God is in the woods ready to take you on an adventure, God is the soft quiet noises of nature, God is the happiness I share with Hayden and Gordy (among all other loved ones) God is in the sweet hearts of my friends who don’t even think they know God, God is in Hayden’s heart, the sweet simple heart that gets joy from giving to others, God is in rain, God is in my laughter, God is my inspiration, and many if not all of our inspirations, He is art. God is all around me, at all times. It is easy to forget but when we remember, it resonates deep into our souls letting us positively move onward with our lives.